About Me

I have lived in south Dakota, all of my life. My family is here, my roots are here. While I don't spend alot of time with "family", we always manage to bond together, when times get tough. Gunnar's death is more proof, of that.I also have a huge family of friends, and this "family"also pulls together, in a heart beat,when necessary. My parents live about 70 miles away, my husbands parents live about 7 miles from our house.

Monday, January 21, 2008


Gunnar's 3rd birthday....with Mom & Jo,
20 years ago......
Happy Birthday, Baby Boy.
I love you, with every beat of my heart,
always & forever,

Friday, January 18, 2008

Monday, January 14, 2008


short & sweet

THANK YOU, to Christopher Rodregious, for sending this via email, awhile back. clip posted below. here's the pic that came with video....

Friends....Reason, Season or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled , their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relatio nships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Sunday, January 13, 2008


today marks the 3rd annivsary, of Gunnar's death..
I'd like to introduce you, to my son,.........
and to todays blogging posts.......
All of you are considered family...I'm expecting no words. I know we all miss Gunnar, and some days, finding the words to express how much, is impossible. A couple of ''Army Wives'' stepped up to the plate...go read their blogs...I share ther links, because I know that today, we are all hurting a little more...........

Thank you, to those of you, that have called, or stopped in to visit....not just yesterday, or last week or anytime durring the last 3 years.....but for helping me tomorrow, next week, or 10 years from now....I am truely blessed, for your friendships.
And then there's Soldier's Angels..to Mary Ann, in Germany. I will never forget your phone call! or the Eagle that swoped thru my back yard, as I hung up the phone....or, your post....
my love, to all of you,

Saturday, January 12, 2008


Was the last day I ‘’talked’’(Messenger) to Gunnar. We were online, together, for almost an hour. He was giving me a really bad time, about buying Doug a PINK leather motorcycle jacket, for Doug’s birthday. We talked about other things, too. Family friends, that have decided to divorce…….we talked about Jo and Cheeseburger, and baby Luke. We talked about his grandparents…..And we talked about how close he was to being done, with deployment, and how much beer we could/would drink, when he got home for leave.
We talked about muzzleloader rifles, and the camero, and his sister's wedding. And he told me to find a computer class, sign up, and write the check, on his account, because he couldn’t keep teaching me, from Iraq. We told each other I love you, and he’d talk to me tomorrow. And I filed the only messenger conversation I’d ever filed. (didn’t know how, but decided to click on file………and I remember sitting in front of the computer, laughing about a pink motorcycle jacket, and suddenly crying……

Monday, January 07, 2008

Mark Dakota

has an exellent CD. Hear part of it, here
My favorite song? Well, here are the lyrics.....
I got a letter from my mom
Says half the country thinks it's wrong
But either way
We'll be right here when you come home
She said my family's doing fine
We miss you so much all the time
And all we do
Is count the days 'till you come home
Between the lines
I know she's scared
I wrote her back with what needs to be said
I'm alright
It's my fight
For my life
So back home
Tell 'em not
To leave us out
Here alone
I'm alright
It's my fight
For my life
I'm not sure who's right or wrong
Doesn't matter when your best friend is gone
I watched him die
Tell me why
Cause I don't know
We put our faith in what our leaders say
It's the reason that I'm here today
We vote em' in
Now we need to win
So I'll come home
I can't change a country's views
But we all win
Or we all lose
(Repeat Chorus)
You wanna tell me what I should do
Oh yeah
They wanna tell me what I should do
I just want to be able to say
I did the best I could
Just want a greater good
Oh yea
Say I did the best I could
Just want the greater good
Mmm yeah
I'm alrightI
t's my fight
For my life
So back home
Tell 'em not
To leave us out
Here alone
I'm alright
It's my fight
So say a prayer
for me tonight
Back home.

And, when I DIE, and if there's a funeral(I hate funerals, so) play Mark's song, FALLOUT, for me.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

New Year 2008

I'm working on a very special post. It's been weighing heavy, on my heart, since new Year's Eve. I'm trying to put together some emails, to help tell the story, and finally went to Grandma Senska's, yesterday, and found the one i've been searching my computers and email accounts to find. My MIL is REALLY GRAT, ABOUT ''HANGING ON'' TO EMAILS, and I found a few I'd forgotten about, while browsing thru her "Gunnar" files.
Luke spent alot of time, with us, over Christmas, and it helps, keeping me focused, not allowing me to slip, to deep, into the depression pit, that seems to follow me like a shadow, this time of year. Winter has always been a depressing season, for me, I crave the spring, and sunshine, already..................................